Saturday, October 7, 2017

Blowing Bubbles Because That's What They Are For

Sometimes it's fun to dress up - especially when there is a wedding ;)

My brother and I accidentally matched. 

Blowing Bubbles Because That's What They Are For 

The skirt is a gift from an aunt - 100% silk :D 
Everything else is thrifted :) 

I must say - why buy clothes new, if you can find them both cheaper and nicer at thrift stores???

Saturday, September 23, 2017

The Testimony of A Liar

This is not my testimony... but one I made up ;) the sole purpose of this is to show two things:

1. Testimonies aren't always true nor worthy of sympathy -  the sort of sympathy that makes you consider changing your views.

2. You have to be very careful when people use verses to back up their claims. Because more likely than not, they may be using this verse to fit their testimony instead of molding their life to fit God's word.

Also, I hope you may find many opportunities to laugh in this. :D After reading the article check out the following verses: Proverbs 12:22, John 8:44, Exodus 23:1, and Colossians 3:9.

Originally posted here

Growing up was very hard for me, because I was living a lie - not who I was at heart, a liar. 

 I had a decent family, yes. I even grew up in a great church family, and was saved at an early age. If it wasn't for my faith in God I don't know how I could have lived through my childhood. Because even though my family and church was great they were more of legalistic judgers rather than lovers.

 Lying is just who I am...even back when I was a small child. 

I crave and need the attention I receive from my lies. 

But people, mostly adults including my parents, would not accept this from me. They said I was being naughty. Childish. 

 They said it wasn't right. That God forbade lying.

 I was devastated that I could be so evil. I tried so hard to stop lying - but it was a part of my nature - 

I was born to lie. 

 I felt so terrible during the last few years of my childhood, and even during my teens. I tried hard to conform to what my family and peers wanted. But sometimes my true self would slip out. I would question my place in life. 

Why did God create such a person as I? Why would he put a nature in me that was one He hated? On top of doubting my own worth I began to even doubt God's existence and love. 

 It was after I had left home. Living on my own hasn't changed anything. Others still judged me.  I always felt so broken and alone. 

Belittled and abandoned. People would spread falsehoods about my lying. 

 One day I could take it no more. I closed my door to the world, sat myself down and took only my Bible. "Father," I cried. "I am tired of living this life you have forced upon me. Why should I be this way if it's wrong? Show me what to do - or end my life." 

 Immediately I opened my bible to the ten commandments. It was because of these commandments, people told me, my life was condemned. 

 My eyes at once saw Exodus 20:16. "Thou shalt not bear false witness against thy neighbor." But I did not feel ugly. I never felt ugly when reading scripture, because God does not use it to judge us, but guide us. On top of that, for the first time I read this verse with sincerity. 

Wow. I had never before seen this. It does not say "Thou shalt not lie"....but that "Thou shalt not TELL LIES ABOUT YOUR FRIENDS TO HARM THEM." 

 And even though my nature is a lying nature I have never said something untrue to hurt someone. Never. You have no idea how fulfilled this verse made me feel. 

I started looking up other verses, and all seemed to be calling out to me to embrace the person God had created me to be - a Liar. 

 It was hard at first to show others who God wanted me to be, and even though God is with me, certain individuals still aren't. But this being hard has proved to me even more that lying is right for me - for nothing easy can be right or satisfying. 

 Almost as much as I love living out who I am I love sharing my testimony. The only thing that saddens me is when people don't believe it. But what encourages me more then that is God knows that it is true. 

 And so I live happy and free! 

  ~ The heart of man plans his way, but the Lord establishes his steps. Proverbs 16:9

Saturday, September 9, 2017

Confident Fashion {Hike your style}

Photos from when my sister and I went hiking. She likes taking pictures, I like being in them. So we make a great team ;)

But still have to have pictures of her!

Enjoy our different styles ;)

Large dandelion (I think)

Selfie with mountains :D 

Top of Table Mountain 

The sky is bigger some places ;) 

I don't poke my eyes - just my sunglasses. 

My tough sister, prepared for bears or rattle snakes. 

Pretty Montana flowers 

I'm pretty sure everything we were wearing was gifted or thrifted. The sunglasses I bought from Amazon. And the skirt I'm wearing was tie dyed by this lady we call Tie Dye Mary. 

Whether we like to admit it or not, the way we dress matters a lot to us girls.

It's a part of who we are.

And for that reason we are always stressing out over it.

But to be able to be free - just dress how you want and be happy? It's something that takes a special state of mind. And once you achieve it you feel amazing - and realize no matter what you wear you feel that you look amazing.

Which I believe is the true secret to making fashion work - just wear what you wear with confidence!

As you can see my sister and I wear different sort of things - but we have our own confidence that fits those outfits perfectly.

Have you achieved confidence in your style? What helped you/ is helping you in this process? 

Saturday, August 26, 2017

Doing What's True

Originally posted 

Do you sometimes base what you do as right because of a feeling you get, or because of others' reactions?

Or because it's hard?

I have a little secret:

Just because something is hard to do doesn't mean you should do it.

A lot of times these factors are important in our decision making (feelings, others' opinions, and even level of hardship).

 But they aren't the most important factors, or even the ruling factors.

Something is always either right or wrong, true or false, no matter how others may applaud or even persecute you or even the feelings of satisfaction you may receive from what you do.

Feelings change.

People's opinions change.

Hardships change according to culture and times.

  But facts never change. 

Hard may be good, but it's not ultimate.

Do what's right not because of others words. Not because of what is considered worthy (or unworthy. But do what is true and perfect according to God's standards.

We aren't to pursue persecution, but perfection (God's). 

Saturday, August 12, 2017

Gypsy in a Field of Flowers

I call myself a hippie. 
 Yet so much of what I stand for is anti-hippie.

Some say I am more gypsy - yet I am not thief ;) I may be decent at pulling trickery, though ;p 

Or not. I don't know.

Anyways - fashion to express my spirit. 

Necklace: I made it :D
Sandals: Walmart
Headband: A gift
Shirt: Thrift
Skirt: Thrift (this is one of my favorite skirts. Wear it so much! It is 100% Hemp ;p)






These are things I like to express with my clothes. 

What sort of things do you try to state with your dress???

Saturday, July 29, 2017

Children of Our Future

Originally posted here

If we look at examples in the Bible, circumstances never stopped God's people from multiplying and becoming a mighty people. 

In slavery and captivity (Exodus 1:7-12).
 In foreign lands (Jeremiah 29:4-6).
 During famine (Genesis 47:27).

 The command was still the same: "Be fruitful and multiply," Genesis 1:28. 

 Why was this? 

 Could it be that our mindset of needing a perfect atmosphere for children be harmful? 

If the world is falling apart don't we need something to build it up? What we really need is to have MANY children so that they rise and do what a few of us can not - change the world.

I know many of my readers aren't even married yet, but never-the-less this is an important issue that each individual should be decided on before they get into a relationship. 

 Especially if you are a Christian. It is for the cause of Yeshua (Jesus) that we want to prosper and grow. And the most efficient way of doing so is following God's plan (if you marry) to have lots of children and train them up for Him.

We don't fix problems by killing our army. But by raising the "soldiers" we make what no other can - soldiers full of conviction, ideals, and character, people who can and will be what the future needs.

 We don't need a world empty of God-fearing "soldiers". Let the world kill off their own, but we, Christians, never! 

For we don't live in fear, but hope (Romans 8 and 2 Timothy 1:7). 

  Hope of a future that can and will be full of God's presence. 

To not have many children for fear of  the future is stupid. To hold back or kill our strength in a time of weakness is foolish.

What are your thoughts on this? Married or single, how do children affect your life?

Saturday, July 15, 2017

Character Over Clothes, Heart Over Body

Well - here we are back to me showing you what I wear.

Let me clarify something: I know nothing about "real fashion". I am not a model. I dress weird.

But I am seeking to dress in a way that glorifies God, respects society and people, and enhances who I am inside.

I should also add - the way we dress does not define our character, but can show glimpses of it.

But just as I change through out life, my dress changes. My dress isn't what changes me but is a mimic of that change.

Basically - don't judge someone for how they dress just as you don't judge a book by its cover. Yet - we all know that the cover does give an idea of what will be inside that book. And what we put on our bodies lets many know what may possibly be pouring from our heart and mind.

Paradox? Absolutely!

Dress to be who God wants you to be, remembering all the while that who God wants you to be isn't merely what you wear.

Character over clothes, heart over body.

God before man's desires.

This is one of my favorites of our horses. She is missing an eye, yet is one of our best riders.

My sister has weird ideas for what makes a good picture ;p I go with MOST of them ;) 

This entire outfit is hand-me-downs. Except the shoes - yard-sale ;)




What statement do you seek to say when you dress? What do you hope people see of your heart when observing you at a first glance?

Saturday, July 1, 2017

More Than Modest: Respect


I suppose I should apologize for my absence – or did any one notice? ;)

I haven't been able to do fashion. I'm sorta reevaluating EVERYTHING in life right now...the way I dress being one ;)

Needless to say, I tried to do a few fashion posts...but couldn't...stuck in a way.

I do think I am ready to share some of my thoughts though – they are still in turmoil inside...but a few may be coherent. Hopefully.

This is loosely related to my post More Than Modest.

I have come to a huge realization: most of the world is selfish. Past the way we act and speak, on to the way we dress. To each individual life and the world revolves 100% around “me” and the way they do things.

And I am no exception to this.

(Do you ever like to watch people and think, 'to them I am the stranger. To them something drastic is happening. Their life is all that matters – my problems would be petty to them.' It's a humbling thought.)

I am going to try and keep this post clothing focused...but as in many areas, my thoughts are directly and indirectly weaved around so many others. Life never unravels in one place – but the whole garment of existence has a way of catching flame suddenly all at once. Not only is it hard to put out the fire – but the damage isn't just a little bit of mending.

More like a complete remake – but there are still pieces worth salvaging??? and how we wear them.

Man, this isn't just some light issue...even amidst deeper, harder things. It still matters.

I've always believed that the way a girl dresses should express her femininity with humbleness, appropriateness, and respectfulness. I've always believed and still believe that those are the key elements of what make up modesty.

But...what do those qualities really mean? What do they look like? So many many have good points...some are just plain wrong - or are they?

What is perspective, what is truth?

And what is simply hypocrisy?

I look at so many women that dress like me (and way more conservative). Even though I understand their background I also can see deeper, past those clothes.

It seems so much of conservative modesty is really just a mask to hide a vulgar, feministic, selfish woman. No joy (or smiling). No beauty.

Shouldn't women be beautiful – aren't we after all the epitome of beauty, of God's creation?

And then I've seen that so much of conservative dress is completely a man-made belief – and we judge each other on our own self-made rules!

Where in the Bible does it say a dress must be full and ankle length? Or that we must dress against the modern culture?

Where in the Bible does it say, “Seek weirdness, flee fashion”?
It doesn't.

I still hold to my core beliefs in how to dress...but I am unsure how those ideas must be expressed through my clothing in ways that both honor God and man. In ways that show respect yet I can still express my personality.

I'm not saying modesty is bad...but it most certainly is being abused.

Dress appropriately, yes – but we don't need to hide the fact we are women and have a shape.

Women are not offensive.

We are beautiful.

Conservatism modesty (hide under layers and layers of polyester – sweat out your faith) doesn't help women be true women.

And neither does the porn industry or Holly Wood (starve yourself to get your bones to pop, then give away your skin for free in clothing that is very worthy of being labeled poverty rags. Show all men what you have – and hide next to nothing) inspire feeling in women of being something more than an object for men.

These two extremes scream at all of us young girls.

How are we supposed to know what to do? Feel good about ourselves?

Balance is a foreign concept – we only know the two wrongs.

Be holy and “save” our entirety for a potential husband (who may not notice us because he's enthralled in the cheap alternative that is too accessible).

In frustrations so many of us throw away the embrace almost nothing. Trying to say, “I am just as beautiful...”

Of course there is still the chance he will only see what you are showing instead of who you are...and even then what you have may not be enough...

Starvation...fashionable doesn't work.


But why not???

The problem is way bigger than the way we dress, first off…but that is another matter entirely.

Dressing to please anyone but God will lead you only to darkness – there will always be someone to find fault.

We must recognize the hypocrisy. But we don't run away from it toward sin.

We embrace the truth of what was said – and “fix it up” instead of covering the truth in lies.

We are women, and must dress accordingly despite what the two extremes tell us.

I am wanting to learn how to respect God and man and myself by not becoming an object – whether an object that hides behind layers or an object that exposes her skin for men to lust after. Who is with me???

I'm still not sure what this looks like. I'm still not sure on a lot of things.

But it is starting to fit together...slowly.

I do not need to be ashamed or hide my body. And I do not need to prove this by embracing the opposite end of the stick – I can still be me, be free in the fact that I am me with out being ashamed of not conforming to one or the other.

True femininity starts with those modesty qualities being instilled in our hearts through Jesus (Yeshua). And once it is we should be able to better express that true modesty in the way we dress.

Many will still judge and hate.

But modesty (fashion) isn't about receiving approval. It's about so much more – such as what is right.

This is an old picture - but I love it because it was a time from my life when I was happy for no reason. When I had every right to be depressed - I was content. The feelings in this picture - this should be our fashion statement. 

Tell me, girls – what does your journey toward respectful dress look like?

We are all in this together, after all. Every movie, every magazine, every garment that is made – it honors or offends each of us personally. And affects all of us together.

Saturday, April 22, 2017

The Art of Keeping a Journal

All the diaries I've completed.
There's something about my journaling. It's the sign of the end of my day. Even when I'm tired, I cant rest until I've got my thoughts, joys and frustrations out in my diary. And once I do, I sleep so good.
I've always written.
For as long as I can remember I loved to write stories. I always believed I would someday be published, but after I died. When I was little I knew that someday someone would find my stuff and then publish it. For some reason I never considered the option of actually publishing it myself.
I loved to read about other authors (most of which are dead.) I thought it sad that we knew little some of them. Because of that I decided I would make sure people could find enough about me, for after I was dead, so they could have a nice sized biography on me.
Thus when I was 11 I started journaling every day. In fact, since then, I've only missed 4-5 days and I have 25 journals filled.
Though it started out as a way others could write my biography, it has turned into something much more than that. It has become a part of my life.
Journaling has developed me. Its helped me work through my thoughts. It has been a therapy of sorts. It has helped me improve on my writing skills. In fact I once read that every successful author should journal. It forces them to write every day, which develops your writing habits, voice and technique.
It can also be fun. Sometimes it's so fun to pick a random day, and read the entry for each of those days to when I first started journaling. A lot of times you will see how something that was going on has some sort of impact on this exact same day, a year or even years later.
So, why journal?
It's relieving, relaxing, encouraging (for when you look back at previous entries), and builds personality and perseverance.
But I believe you should do it because you want to. Find reasons of why you want to, so that when you commit to doing it, you'll have something worth committing to.
1.Make a commitment.
2. Keep that commitment.
When I first decided to start writing in a journal every day, that's all I diddecide to write every day. I didn't stress out how much or when.
Eventually it became a habit to do it every night right before going to bed, but I used to do it in the morning, and even in the afternoon.
But remember – there's always exceptions. There will be days when you just CAN'T write. Just get back to it the next day.
So, the answer is just keep at it, and don't stress out over it. Nothing is fun when you are worrying about it.
What ever you feel like.
Some days I do no more than one or two sentences. Other days I write ten pages.
Normally I do two to three paragraphs.
Also, because I sometimes use my journal to work through thoughts or things, I don't let anyone read them.
My writing may be sloppy at times, and words misspelled, because I don't want it to be readable to anyone but myself. Not that I purposely misspell or write sloppy. I just don't make that a priority.
The reason I'm saying this, is some people feel they can't journal for fear of making so many mistakes. But the mistakes don't matter and shouldn't stop you from writing. It's just write it, and don't think about it.
And it can even be quite interesting when you look over your journal to see your writing grow. My penmanship and spelling has improved greatly just through journaling on a daily basis.
Also, one year I did a whole journal and a half in a code I'd made up, so no-one could read it. :D That was an interesting time. But I soon quit it after one of my aunt's talked to me and said it wasn't wise, because the code might be forgotten.


I think most people, when journaling, aim for something along the lines of a Dear America book. Something that has plot and meaning and action. A story. A novel of your own life.

But most end up with something like this;
Dear Diary,
Today I got up. Then I scrubbed the kitchen floor. After that I read all afternoon. That's all. Goodnight.
When it comes to journaling I believe that most people give it up because they don't know what to write about. Life just isn’t a novel. Its every day stuff – mostly boring stuff, too.
Journaling isn't about how you do it or even what you are are writing. Journaling is about why you are doing it.
Everyone has a different personality and will journal differently. Some will even use different methods of journaling. Here are some interesting ways of journaling that I think are neat and worthy of mentioning.

Journaling in now a habit a for me. So its sort of hard to break down just why I do it.
But I can give an example of how I do it, to explain why I do it :)
I will write down only the important or interesting facts of the day. If I work, sometimes I'll record my hours or what a work day was like. This has come in handy more than once when we needed to remember something.
Sometimes the things I write wont be stuff I did, but things I said or thought, or conversations I had or overheard. I don't have very many dreams, or at least I don't remember most of them. But when I do, I will also write these down.

I never address the journal to anyone – that just feels very cheesy to me. But I do date it, and if the day is something special, like Sabbath or a birthday, I'll write that on the first line.

I believe I just said that addressing the journal to someone was cheesy. But that isn't true for everyone. During this time in Anne's life she needed a friend.
Her journal, Kitty, became that.
And that's one of the beautiful things about Anne Frank's Diary. It was her own thing, something she could use to get her thoughts through such a difficult time. It wasn't about the war, or her life, or her 
family. It was what she needed to get out.


1. Prayer journals.
I've just recently heard of these. If you are going through a rough time, Spiritually, some people will write out prayers to God. Then when payers are answered it's very encouraging to be able to look back through your prayers.

2. Letters to friends.
I sort of did this once.
I took a notebook and started writing letters to someone. I kept writing letters to that girl, but never showed her the letters.
It can make the journaling feel more personal when you address each entry to a real or imaginary friend.

3. Journaling with Word Doc
Some people prefer to type.
I feel that writing everything out by hand is more satisfying and real, but this just doesn't work for some.

4. Scraps of paper
I would not recommend this method to anyone, but it is something people do.
Its not at all organized. LOL. :)
But you can keep your notes in a bag or jar.

5. Novel form
This is when you journal, but everything you write you make up to cope with whatever you are going through. These will be very unrealistic and emotional, maybe in full of weird thoughts.

6. Calendars
Just fill in the highlights of your day at the end of each day.

7. Prose or poems
When you express whatever is on your heart through poetry. I've sort of done this. For a while I had a special notebook that I would write in almost every day, whatever was by poems.
My current journal.

Only journal if you want to.
And if you don't want to, then don't! Keeping a diary is only for those that want to do it, that have a decided commitment and keep that commitment. It's for those that feel like writing – though not all journalists will enjoy writing.

But, let me say this. Once you start keeping a journal and make it a habit, you won't regret it, but look forward to it! So, yes, I recommend keeping a journal to everyone, especially authors.

What will you do? Is this something for you? Share why or why not in the comments! I'd love to hear your thoughts on this. If you do journal, feel free to share what you think about this art.